Hello Puberty!

Yeah, that's pretty much where it started.. 6th grade, I started to notice that all the other little girls were just slighty more attractive to me. Of course, it may be that I was considered at the time a social out cast, and the target of many public humiliations.. and I tended to loath the majority of the boys in my class. Shortly there after I entered Jr. High, and things got even more interesting. I was a huge tom-boy. I could always be found wearing the same light colored jeans and the most hideous oversized sweater ever. I never did my hair, and makeup was far from my mind. This would be the time, I had my first sexual experience with a girl in my drama class, and since then, it has been a continuing battle to acknowledge my sexuality.

 I grew up in Provo til I was 14 and then we moved to Lindon, just 20 mins north. I attended high school, joined the drill team, did the normal things that little mormon girls do. Date numerous boys, encourage your friends to go on missions, you know.. the stuff good girls do. But, I was still putting on a facade. I lost my virginity by the time I was 16, and I started living my other life. I continued to do the things I should, dating multiple guys, and getting the grades I needed. But, somehow I still found the bad boys, and by the time I graduated highschool, I had been sexually active, and already had 7 partners to account for.

I was married shortly after highschool, my new husband was a convert, so we were married civily, we moved to a little apartment in Lehi, and started laying the foundation for our lives. But, my past caught up with me, and by the time we were married a year an half, we were practicing an open marriage, with multiple partners, and I was even seeing a couple of women. Close to our second marriage we decided to get our act together, and we went through the temple in March of 2008. As quickly as we rushed to the temple, our marriage was quickly over. Just a few months after my husband came to me, with a girl whom I had seen during our open marriage period. They were in love, and my husband was leaving me.

Needless to say.. I was shocked. Well. Lets me honest. I kinda had that one coming. Mixing two relationships is never a good idea. We were divorced in August, and I was once again single. This time things were different, and I acutally was being the good girl for once. I was attending church regularly, dating multiple men, looking for another chance to be happy.. to be married. I look back now in retro spective and wish I had taken more time to know myself, and be single.. But, by December of 2008, I met my current husband, and shortly there after we were engaged. I cancelled my sealing to my ex, and the hubs and I were hitched the following summer of 2009. I was on cloud nine!

Now, fast forward 3 years since I met my husband. We have one daughter, Little Missey. I love her. We live in a four bedroom house, two cars, one dog, and we are happy. My husband knows I am sexually attracted to women. lol, he knows that if we ever got divorced, or he were to die.. I would become a pacticing lesbian. But, for now. I am Jane, I am Mormon, a Wife, a Mom.. and I am a Lesbian.